Confession Time

This is the fourth in a series of "stories" that I {we} have submitted to Dark Wanderer story site in the past two weeks. The first three stories were based on my hot dreams. I am Leta and I am the willingwhiteslut@yahoo.com This time I need to confess some additional reality for all my readers and I will add a couple more of my dreams for those who wish to continue to use me. First of all, thank you to each and every one of the more than 130 people who contacted me through yahoo chat or through my e-mail to encourage my activities. I had been originally afraid that I would be taken the wrong way. I would say I had only one negative mail from one woman who was concerned about my hinting that I wanted my husband killed in the last story. For the record, that is Michael's desire to tease that type of talk. He writes porn for a living and is even sicker than I am with his own fantasies. He did most of the actual writing for me the last three stories and is editing this one for me too. He knows what I am doing. That is the confession. In real life, our situation leaves my family needing more money. I am not legally allowed to work in Canada yet. When I do become allowed to work here which will hopefully happen this fall, I am hoping to become a professional phone sex girl. I will have web cam and I will do any and all fantasies. Before that time, I need to get practiced. That is where these "stories" come in. These are my fantasies. These are the things I enjoy chatting about and sharing with everyone. I do find Niggers to be so sexy. I want more children real life... and the way everyone is racist here, I would just love to be able to be Black pregnant and make people face their hypocrisy. I am not able to take the pill anyhow. So unless my new lovers will choose to respect my family situation, I am sure they will want to use my holes as my holes are meant to be used. That is what I want. I want to be three holes. That is all. I want no caring about my emotions... or my worries... or my fears... or any shit. I feel so good when I just get used. I suppose I am not healthy, but I don't care. I know I was both mentally and physically abused most my life. If things had been different, maybe I would be too. They weren't and I am not. For my happiness now, I need this treatment. Michael is good. He is my real husband. Sorry about the names. We just didn't want us recognized until we could find out if I can handle chat or not. Michael treats me very well and keeps me quite happy. We are both super kinky. We want to have a super kinky life, as much as will be possible considering I am a mom first and foremost already. I want to talk any taboo... so I will talk about my kids for those interested, but try to understand if I fictionalize some things to help keep them safer. I will risk my own health and Michael is a big boy and can do what he decides he wants to do. Kids need responsible caretakers though, so I do have some final lines I don't cross. I get off the most on talking to black men, but for heaven's sakes don't hesitate to message me if you happen to not be black or even a guy. Of my ten favorite contacts now, only 3 are black and 1 is a female. I love to give well over an hour to anyone I chat with so we can make sure he will get off. Once I am doing voice in five weeks, this may become easier. For now though, I am over-committed so sorry if I have to stay invisible most the time with my chat. I would still love to meet new guys. I am like an addict. I need more and more and more. I can't be used by too many guys. I am going to realistically have to cut back though and focus on quality for the ones I like the most. This won't mean that I didn't like the one's I might have to cut back on, but will just be a business decision. Once I go voice for my training time, I want a variety of the kinkiest, most difficult ideas to learn about. I can't totally neglect my kids and most guys seem to want me every day. I probably will try to cut back to about 10 main guys or girls that will use me. For them, I promise that everything will be free forever. I really look forward to this next step. Overall, I find type chat to be a bit boring. My fingers get sore and it's hard to touch myself. I like to be made to get naked and do weird, kinky things... but I want my guy to see the proof that I am obeying. Michael won't let me give away free web cam since he says guys don't buy milk from cows they can squeeze for free. I understand the need for the money... but for my true fantasy I want to truly be owned. I hate refusing any request. I do obey when I say I obey. Guys know what they have already made me do. I can't believe half the stuff I've agreed too. I thought I was a kinky bitch, but there are lots and lots of wonderful men with wonderful ideas for me too. Anyhow... that is about it for my confession. I am the girl in the dreams except I'm married and my husband DOES know what I am doing. I AM intending to become a professional in a few months time. I DO want to be used absolutely free of charge now to anyone who wishes it. Either Michael or myself can do some voice now to prove we are man and wife. In about 5 weeks our house guest leaves and we can do much, much, much kinkier voice. We both want to serve men and women for profit. We both don't mind doing it for free to get good at it. Michael is the author of the mkarl stories. Not sure if that is a good thing or bad thing. You can see more of how he writes and what he would be like for chat when you read them if you want. Now all that said... I do have a few new dreams. I have something big I am telling in chat but can't reveal here cause of a promise I made to someone. Sorry to be so strange, but I will explain if you ask about this 'secret dream.' It's a bonus to those who take the time to message me as a special thank you for their help in me realizing this little thing. Next dream I have... this one is scary. Not sure how well it fits the theme here at dark wanderer so I will keep it brief. One guy suggested I could tickle wrestle with my son. I now wonder if I could do more. My son loves WWF wrestling. He plays it with his friends. I hate it, cause kids can easily get seriously hurt trying that stuff for real. So maybe I should be a responsible parent and play WWF with my son myself? Show him how all the holds are just 'faked'? I'd have to do everything with him to show him all of it. If he started to take advantage of rolling around on the floor with me, I could act cool about it and not say anything to discourage him. I don't think it could go further than that... but I'm still investigating the idea how it sounds to me. I know a lot of my fans might be interested, so here is a new thing we can talk about. I love the whole cuckold idea. I am mostly meant to be a slut for one true DOM Man. I feel it. Michael is a switch. I love him dearly, but he wants another Man in our life. I only hesitate because of the fear I have how it could effect the kids. They need to be about 8 years older I think. It's hard to wait though. As a mother, I would want my son to be a true Dom. I am not opposed to the idea of letting him learn that many women are very happy when a Man is a Man and a woman can be a woman for Him. I doubt I can cross the road to any true incest behavior... but I would love to get feedback from as many as possible on some ideas I have for teaching. See if they would be ideas that could grow confidence, or if they would go too far. In my fantasy I can talk ANYTHING... but I need to be clear fantasy and reality are different for me. In fantasy, I wouldn't mind at all if my son was the one cuckolding my husband as soon as he was old enough. It is a pure danger idea and excites me greatly. I probably shouldn't be so honest confessing the idea. I am not sure of the legality of having such a fantasy. I make sure I don't ever do anything that is illegal though, so the risk is just hot to talk about. Right? Actually I am not sure if I could be charged with spreading hate for my use of the 'N' word. Canada has some strong legislation on hate laws. I sure as hell don't hate Niggers. I love the N word. It is sexy and powerful. There are hardly any Niggers around where I live. I almost have to travel an hour if I wanted to meet them. Still, my area is totally racist. Mostly we are racist against natives but anyone who isn't white gets called every name and gets the worst things said about them. It sickens me. I guess I am a reverse racist maybe? I am not sure there is such a thing. I just would like my next baby to be black as black can be. I hate that the baby would have a harder life for this... but I want it to show everyone a lesson. Michael feels the same way. His mother was actually real life raped by two Black Men many years ago. He has never had any chance to talk to her about this. Maybe it has messed him up... but again we know we aren't 100% healthy. We live our real life's squeaky clean and are very good and upstanding people. We know the difference between fantasy and reality. We don't want to hurt anyone. Michael just likes the idea that Nigger Men can use the women that he wanted too and was never man enough to do... and I just want some Black babies I can show to my family and all the assholes around here to let them know I go Black and they can be jealous as hell about it or anything they want. There is one Nigger now working in the nearby town I shop at. He works a night shift. Michael thinks I should go fuck him, but of course that is too risky. I need to be disease safe for my kids. I want to imagine things though. I want to discuss things with my friends here what we could be doing. Maybe next story I can have some real action in it for a change. As for real action... I did let the dog cum on my face just this morning. Sunday. I don't know all the legality of this. I am sure fucking him is totally illegal. I can't believe masturbating him in private would be though. Who is getting hurt? I jerked and put my face in harm's way. I hope that will make several of my friends here very happy. It was enjoyable for me too... and I think King loved it more than anyone. One new chatter this morning was so intense. I loved him almost the most of all. I hope he won't be upset if I share some of his chat. I wouldn't ever reveal anyone to anyone more than this. He told me that when we meet the first thing he will do is punch me in the stomach. I will go down. He will kick me I think. When I am crying, he will reach down and rip of my clothing. I will be mounted there on the floor and fucked. I think he said something about taking me to the toilet and pushing my face in until I was half drowned. Or pissing on me... or something like that. He said he would fuck my ass and punch me in the back of the head the whole time. He wanted to pay me 1000 dollars for one night. Bruise me from head to toe. I loved the total fear factor of our chat. I had to be honest and tell him I couldn't meet him. It was so hot... but just too much. It is the type of chat I like though. I want it all... anything and everything. I am ready for use anytime. I have my family duties and I need more sleep... but I love to be kept here... pleasing men... pleasing myself... I am so desperate to slut. The phone sex is coming soon. I can start saying hello's pretty much anytime to prove I really am a girl cause I guess some doubt it. Michael would be willing to chat to anyone who wants to chat too. We are real people. We want to do more stories for people and just make people happy. Hope no one will be angry at this confession. I will try to make my next story much more of a story story. I owe a very nice couple a good story. Maybe we can do something based on reality if I get lucky with them. I also think a few of my more powerful Masters are getting impatient to see their names here. I am going to have to be a busy girl. Running for now Everyone be kind to one another World needs more love Leta 7469 1.21/512345